Undoing

Standing on the ledge
One step forward
I fall into darkness
One step back
I'm not sure if i want to be there either
Feelings of numbness, pain
surround me

I put on a fake smile and laugh
Hiding my the true feelings
Afraid if one heard the truth
Another crack form
So I kept my distance at arms left
I have someone but not really

When I feel myself breaking part
I wish I had someone to hold me
Tell me it will be ok
Tell me that I'm safe
Tell me they love me
Even when I don't love myself

Afraid of being alone
Showing that vulnerable part of me
Will that someone leave me
Once they realize how broken I really am
That would be my undoing